It breaks my heart...truly. It's devastating for me to hear this...you're right. I had the two most incredible human beings on this earth raise me. I have no idea how I got so lucky. I was so naive and so sheltered I actually thought all children were raised the same way I was. Until I had no choice but to learn about this evil disorder. I had to know what happened to me. I knew nothing of abuse and other than him I had truly beautiful relationships. But it's never too late. That I'm sure of and I believe in balance...karma...you seem like such a sweet woman. It's not too late. Please don't give up. I've already had so much love in my life that if I never meet that special person I was certain would be in my life..I'm honestly okay with that..but you are allowed to want anything in this world. It's very normal to want love...the kind of love you're talking about. Just keep picturing it. Literally paint a mental picture in your mind of what it looks like (and more importantly) feels like. Put it out there into the universe and wait...I have a good feeling...I really do. I lost my Dad when I was just 14. I'm an only child. I can not describe the sadness and my Mom thought her life was over...especially in the romance department. She actually got a second love and spent the last 20 years of her life with him. I told her it would happen...she thought I was crazy. He was a wonderful man. It's never too late. Don't ever give up. Please keep in touch with me. Love, Ellen