What is Spiritual Narcissistic Abuse?

It is precisely what happened to me! I honestly can not think of a better description.

As I have said previously….he did not beat the crap out of me. He did not cheat on me either. If he had his way….he would have stayed forever! Why not? It was a really good deal.

I bought the house. The cars. The artwork. The food. Paid the bills. My Mom was always there helping out….he didn’t have to do one single thing….except torture me to the point that I began to lose myself in every way.

Everything I wholeheartedly believed in he made me question. Everything I loved he tried to convince me wasn’t love at all. Had he taken a gun and shot me, it would have been much kinder…because for me…losing myself, my soul, my identity, my beliefs…there was nothing more tragic as far as I’m concerned.

As far back as I can remember I was a free spirit. Loved people. Loved life in general. After a while I simply didn’t love anything…especially myself. I actually had to mourn the loss of myself. The hardest thing I have ever had to do.

What happened to me one year ago is something I don’t think I will ever really be able to explain. It came back. I came back! My love for life came back as well as my spirituality. No one was more shocked than me! I guess it was there all along and I just had to find it for myself….even he, with his overwhelming power and twisted gift of cruelty could not silence my spirit any longer. Truly the best surprise I’ve ever gotten.